My life is always crazy and this is probably one of the most crazy, but at times like this it always helps to get some perspective. As I mentioned in my last post, my sister, Janus Prof just had a baby, so her life is definitely crazier than mine. In addition, a very sad thing happened last week that has really altered my view point about life in general. A friend of mine who was ~25 weeks pregnant went into premature labor. The baby died two days later. I went to the memorial yesterday. I just can't imagine how horrible it must be for them, and I can find no possible explanation for why this should occur.
In the scheme of things, it really doesn't matter if I get grant money or if my lab combusts in a beautiful panorama of flames. The most important thing is that my family is strong and that we are all happy and healthy. Things have been tough for me because I tried to do too much at the beginning of the term. I am backing off now and doing work @ work and home @ home and getting a little time for myself, and things are getting better. I am trying a different balance and maybe I won't get all the grants and papers that I wanted out, but the most important things (i.e., my family) will be taken care of.